Not fair and very painful

WHAT THE FUCK.

I just got spammed by Mr N.

Some stupid link called snowplowingtoronto. I doubt it's actually him - it's just spam. I feel sick. Is it worth emailing him to ask him to take me off his address book? I can't email him. I just can't. Ohhhhhhh I feel SICK.

This is not a normal reaction. I miss him. I miss him horribly. The worst part is that I actually got excited about getting the email. I clicked on it without thinking.

This is actually a little bit cruel.

I did the right thing and it didn't feel good

Things always seem to happen when I'm running late for work.

A friend just told me that he loves me and that he'll come home 'for me and if he had something to do'. That's a lot of pressure to put on someone at 7 in the morning on Skype. One can't hide dead silence and a look of panic on Skype. Now I understand why he said 'can we please skype? I only need 5 minutes'.

Now I'm all worried and upset and hyper and I have to go and concentrate at work. It's a terrible day already.