Lovely things

One of the nicest feelings in the world is when someone strokes your hair or face when you're sick.

Mr G

Mr G's dad died.

I went home for a night to stay with him. There was no food.  He cried, got mad at me, told me how much he loves me then promised me the universe.
I didn't want the universe. I wanted love and attention.

That's really it. Because when you love someone you listen to them. You try to please them.

I don't want money and I don't want surprise gifts (got a pair of shoes). I wanted talking. Lots of talking. I wanted some understanding - I am so tired my bones hurt. I can't think because I'm in a fog and I just want to sleep and read all day.

At the same time, I want to be there for him. I want to help him and hug him when he cries and take care of him. I love him so much, I can't stand seeing him so shattered.

Memorial service is tomorrow.

I did the right thing and it didn't feel good

Things always seem to happen when I'm running late for work.

A friend just told me that he loves me and that he'll come home 'for me and if he had something to do'. That's a lot of pressure to put on someone at 7 in the morning on Skype. One can't hide dead silence and a look of panic on Skype. Now I understand why he said 'can we please skype? I only need 5 minutes'.

Now I'm all worried and upset and hyper and I have to go and concentrate at work. It's a terrible day already.

Love?

Hawm just mentioned that there are 96 Sanskrit words for 'love'.
I tell one of my best friends that I love him all the time. And sometimes it makes other people uncomfortable, especially when they know my boyfriend and they hear me telling someone other than him 'I love you!'

I'd sure like it if there was a special word in English that would let me say 'you're rad and I'll keep you forever because you make me happy'. Oh wait, that word would be 'love'.

I bet Sanskrit would have words for the following:

1. I love you but I hate you at the same time.
2. I love you and I want you to be my best friend forever.
3. I love you, I'm glad I met you and you make me happy.
4. I love most of you, but you're missing some very important things.
5. I love you because I want to be you.
6. I love you because I'm related to you, but you really piss me off a lot.

On second thought, I don't think I'd want to say those things to people. Maybe it is a good thing that we're just stuck with 'love'.